Sunday, October 17, 2010
I've been debating about whether or not to share this with all of you wonderful readers, as I try and keep this blog lighthearted and upbeat as much as possible. But, over this weekend, my boyfriend and I broke up. There were some things about the relationship that weren't healthy or good for either of us. I thought that the fact that we still love each other and shared something really special was enough to get us through it all, but he didn't see that possibility, and after having the time to think about it and talk it out, I agreed and saw it in that way, too. Sometimes my cheerful nature and optimism makes me idealistic and blind to what's really happening, and all of my optimism and my faith in what we had wasn't enough to keep us together.
Though it sucks right now, and nobody likes to cry and feel a loss like this, breaking up with him is best in the long run. I'm at a significant crossroads in my professional life, and will be moving and starting fresh in May. Before the break-up, I had been dragging my feet about starting this new chapter in my life, because I knew that it would be difficult to maintain a solid relationship with him while still doing what I needed to do for myself. Now, I am viewing this impending move and career promotion as being a chapter that is exciting and filled with possibility (including a kind-hearted, family-oriented, hard-working, friendly and sociable, hilarious and silly, brunette and bearded man who can provide what I need emotionally and will open up for me to do the same... not asking for too much, right, hehe?).
In the meantime, I'm going to use these next few months as a time to do all the legwork needed to ensure that I'm as prepared as possible for this new chapter, and to reignite some friendships that I let slide (I have ladydates planned for every day this week!). I'm sure the process of all this will have its ups and downs, but there's this really fantastic support system of friends and family, all such amazing and kind people, who will be right there with me as I try and figure it all out (including my amazing mom who has talked to me for hours, my friend and neighbor who let me stay with her last night, and one very dear friend who already offered up a double date for me to have with her, her boyfriend, and her boyfriend's coworker who is, apparently "perfect for you." We'll see about that, but it's sort of nice that the possibilities are looking fun already). I hope that all of you great blog friends will share pieces of this journey with me, too, as this community is another source of support and positivity that I can really use right now!
So, in closing of this super-personal and emotional blog post (I promise fun crafts and fashion will return to this page ASAP!), I want to ask you ladies a question, as a way to instill hope in me. If you can bear to share it, could you tell me about a time when you were brokenhearted and how you found happiness, or how you met the person who turned out to be your true love, after you lost that person who you thought was "the one"? I could really use to hear about how "everything happens for a reason" right now.
Thanks, you guys!
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